OMG - Best review EVER!

Sometime I put my self out there.

Sometimes it works (sometimes not so much) but this was a great initiative. I contacted Sheri said come have a massage and write me a review. 

So she did.

And this is it! 

So very touching...
thanks Sheri

Trying to get back...

I'm doing my best to get back on some sort of track.
I get sad when I miss something that was really important to someone else and it just slipped through my net.
I'm sorry I forgot you. It wasn't my intention. I hope you understand that.

Mojo found...

I thought I'd lost it, turns out it was just hiding. I was too distracted to be able to tap in.
I was working and other job - one that i thought offered me more than what massage did. Turns out like so many things when you try to do more than one thing you dont do any thing well.
So after being told that "my contract wasnt being renewed" i was super bummed, but then i did a massage and it was the best one that id done in a while. The singing was back. I could hear the  muscles working and moving and shifting.
I was so happy it was like seeing an old friend who you didnt realise you missed so very  much.
The bestest part the client was stoked too. Win win!
Now...to decide what to do next. Where to go from here with renewed faith that Im doing what Im supposed to be doing.

Lost my Massage Mojo...

I've lost my massage mojo and I don't know how to get it back.

I've been trying to think about what this life and business means to me. It used to mean allot and I used to get so much out of it. Sometimes now it just seems empty. Like there's no magic left.


Its really tough for me to think this. Massage is my life, its what I do for the longest time it was who I am. So if im not connecting the way that i used to with clients, if I can't read them any more what do i do? Who am I? I was trying to explain how it felt to a client. That i could hear what was going on in their body, that it was so quiet and subtle that I had to close my eyes and listen close.
Then while i massaged her I did that, i closed my eyes and i couldn't hear anything. Just silence, no response no magic, no body singing under my finger tips. What happened to that ability? It used to be so automatic that sometimes it was like a concert in my hands. Automatic that I couldn't switch it off and I would hear peoples bodies in pain crying out for attention.
But now, there's nothing.
Its really lonely and I don't know how to get it back.