I've lost my massage mojo and I don't know how to get it back.
I've been trying to think about what this life and business means to me. It used to mean allot and I used to get so much out of it. Sometimes now it just seems empty. Like there's no magic left.
Its really tough for me to think this. Massage is my life, its what I do for the longest time it was who I am. So if im not connecting the way that i used to with clients, if I can't read them any more what do i do? Who am I? I was trying to explain how it felt to a client. That i could hear what was going on in their body, that it was so quiet and subtle that I had to close my eyes and listen close.
Then while i massaged her I did that, i closed my eyes and i couldn't hear anything. Just silence, no response no magic, no body singing under my finger tips. What happened to that ability? It used to be so automatic that sometimes it was like a concert in my hands. Automatic that I couldn't switch it off and I would hear peoples bodies in pain crying out for attention.
But now, there's nothing.
Its really lonely and I don't know how to get it back.
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